The Big Weekend

This weekend was a big one for my little family. We had Abby get baptized and Lee was blessed. I had been looking forward to this weekend for a long time. It was so wonderful to be with Abby as she got ready for her baptism. I loved watching her go into the font and get baptized. I loved being on the sidelines waiting with a towel for her to come out of the water. Helping Abby change into her special baptism dress, doing her hair, putting on her special baptism necklace that I had gotten her and putting on a white wrist corsage was something that I will never forget. These precious moments are the reasons that I have always wanted to be a mother. Both of my parents spoke at the baptism, and my grandparents all bore their testimonies. I do have to say that the other highlight of the service was when Anne and Caroline stood up in front of everyone and sang the song "Baptism". It was so hard for me to play the piano for them because of all of the tears in my eyes. I have never been more proud of all of my little girls.
Because Abby's baptism day was also her 8th birthday we went back to my Grandma and Grandpa Bennion's house and had a dinner and a celebration. My heart was so full as I looked around the room and realized how many people we have who love my children, especially because the weather was horrible and we had a snowstorm, but members of both my family and Otto's family braved it to be with us on this special day. It was so wonderful to see my little girl so excited that she had participated in a spiritual experience. I never realized how special this day would be for me. I know that I will remember it for the rest of my life, and I hope that Abby remembers it as well.
Today was also quite an emotional day for me. Lee was given a name and a blessing in church. This is a big deal in my religion because it is a time when our little babies are blessed by the Lord and their names are recorded in the church records. Again, it was wonderful to be surrounded by family members who love my little family. This was also a bittersweet time for me because this is the last time that I will be able to do this for one of my own children. Also, this was really hard because it made me really think about my little baby that I had last May who is now in Heaven waiting for me. I never got to have Otto give her a name and a blessing. I never got to dress her in the special white blessing dress. But most of all, when I looked at Lee laying the the beautiful white satin blanket I thought of the last time that I saw Robin. We had wrapped her in a smaller version of that blanket and laid her in her casket and she is buried in that small version of the blessing blanket. It makes me wonder if I will always have these little episodes of sadness when something wonderful happens in our family.
I completely feel as though we are done having children. We do have 5 living ones, after all. However, I don't ever feel as though my home is complete because I feel as though I am missing someone. It has almost been a year since I had my little Robin, and I have been thinking about her alot lately. I am scared to celebrate Mother's Day because that was when I had found out that she had died last year. I am nervous for May 15th because I know that it will be a hard day for me because I miss my little angel so much.
I know that my baby is happy and waiting for us to go and join her. I also know that my Abby has made a wonderful decision to get baptized and that Lee's blessing was from the Lord. I love all of my children so much, and it is so wonderful to have weekends like the one that we had this past weekend.