A year ago today. . .

It was a year ago today that our family was completed. Everyone who was supposed to come to us had arrived and we had a little miracle in the works. Little did I know when I woke up that morning that by the time I would go to bed I would have one of the biggest scares of my life that would also result in holding my youngest son in my arms.
A year ago today I was hanging out, getting ready for my C-Section that was coming up the following week. I was running errands and I was getting children to and from their various schools. I felt a bit sick and crampy and I really couldn't feel my baby move. A year ago today I was worried about this. It had not even been a year since I had delivered my stillborn and so I was feeling anxious. I could not get the nagging feeling that I needed to get checked out at the hospital out of my head. A year ago today, I followed that prompting, grabbed my camera, picked up my hubby and dropped off Caroline and Dustin at a friend's house.
A year ago today I sat in the triage of the Foothills Hospital watching the baby monitor and hoping and praying that the baby would move and that there would still be a heartbeat. A year ago today my doctor just happened to end surgery as I arrived. A year ago today she decided that because baby wasn't moving and I was already scheduled for a C-section the next week and the O.R. was open and she was there and I was there that she would do a C-Section. A year ago today I went into the operating room, grateful that I had grabbed my camera and excited and nervous that I was about to have my baby.
A year ago today, the operating room went silent. You could hear the hum of the monitors and the beating of my heart, but not a word was said. A year ago today a sudden cry broke the silence and the NICU was called in to help the baby and there was a flurry of activity. A year ago today my baby was whisked off to the NICU as the doctors tried to explain to me what had happened.
A year ago today I found out that I had almost lost my baby. I had had a placental abruption and was bleeding into the amniotic sac so Lee was eating, drinking and breathing blood. There were also numerous knots in the umbilical cord and if we had waited 2 more hours we would have lost another baby.
A year ago today I couldn't stop shaking and crying as I realized how close I had come to losing my baby. A year ago today I realized, for the first time, that Lee had his own special guardian angel. I realized that our little Robin had been helping him and because I had had her not even a year before my Lee was born I was able to notice the lack of movement on Lee's part. A year ago today, the death of one of my babies resulted in the saving of another one.
Over this past year I have thought a lot about that day. My heart still beats so quickly whenever I think about how close I came to losing Lee. It makes me so grateful that my Heavenly Father helped everything to fall into place at just the right moment so that my Lee could be saved.
I still firmly believe that everything that happened a year ago today was for a special purpose and that I have been entrusted with a very special boy. This is a boy who brings so much love and peace into my life. He is the happiest little guy and so calm and sweet.
And to think when I woke up that morning I had no idea how my life would be changed from a year ago today.